Journeying Toward My “More” On The Leading Edge

leading edge

   [lēd]

  1. AERON. the front edge of a propeller blade or airfoil
  2. ☆ a position of leadership, as in cultural or technological advances
Webster’s New World College Dictionary Copyright © 2010 by Wiley Publishing, Inc., Cleveland, Ohio.

 

The path to an abundant and prosperous life is so different than I thought. Even the personal, internalized meaning of the words has shifted so much for me.

The back in the mid 90’s. I had a close relationship with the Creator, a great job doing something I liked, with a loving wife and young family, a music hobby that I really liked (I still have them all now too). Life was pretty good. It was darn better than just ok. I had pretty much everything that any ambitious young guy could want. So why was I dissatisfied? I didn’t know. It just wasn’t enough. I wanted to be more, affect more, influence more, have more abundance, more prosperity, more to give cause I realized just having is boring and empty. I have always been a giving person who liked helping others, and I did a lot of giving without expectation of reciprocity, although never having articulated or formalized it as such. I just liked helping people. But I realized that I wasn’t going to get the “more” bits by staying in my job – it was never going to get me to the financial place where I could have any kind of significant effect.

As I was thinking about the above again this week, the Eagles song “Already Gone” came to mind, with these lines of the lyrics that have always jumped out at me every time I’ve listened to it:

You can see the stars and still not see the light (that’s right)
So often times it happens that we live our lives in chains
And we never even know we have the key

Yeah I know that the song was really about the relational difficulties and power struggles that were occurring in the band during that time and that often sadly seem to accompany huge success.

But the personal power of the lyrical snippet above comes from the meaning I attribute to it as I overlay it into my own paradigm and situation, as I did (and still do). It’s significant and handy that the following version of the song is from 1995, which marks the start of my journey to discover my “more”.


So now that adequate preparation has been made, the plutonium has been loaded to fuel the flux capacitor, let’s turn the time circuits on and go back to 1995…


Back in 1995 when I realized I wanted “more”, so I did the only logical thing possible: I quit my job of 10 years one day without telling my wife (not recommended – I can feel all you wives out there smiling as you read this), and came home all excited, telling her I was going to start a business.  She has since forgiven me for the “not telling her” part, with my promise that I would NEVER do that again. 🙂

So began a long, arduous quest for my “more” that included doing contract work, starting two dot com businesses, and several more “regular jobs”.  My approach was that I used to think that thoughts didn’t matter, that my world within, my life within had no effect on my external world, and that I couldn’t control the thoughts that came anyway – “I’m having a bad day”, and so on.

For years and years in my quest for “more” I lived being negative on the inside and positive on the outside using willpower to keep going. But I was desperately miserable for so many years, and made no significant progress that I finally said to my past self “How’s that been workin’ for ya?”. “Not so great!” I finally replied to my past self. I was ready for a change I suppose, although I don’t remember thinking that (remember I thought my thoughts didn’t matter?).

Then I was introduced to a Network Marketing business in early 2011. So finally realizing that I’m really a wannabe lazy networker and don’t want the 24×7 grind and responsibility of a traditional business, I joined. I also realized at that time, in order to get that “more”, I needed to become “more” and change my thinking from negative to positive, . So I started working on myself, read a bunch of books on personal development, worked on actually applying them to my life with some success, but still not consistent, persistent and tenacious enough. I still felt like I needed even “more” to become “more” (is this theme getting tedious?). That’s when I was introduced to a six month intensive mindset course call the Master Key Mastermind Alliance (MKMMA – say that three times fast), and I dove in.  You can check it out at this link:
http://masterkeymarkj.com/master-key-master-mind-alliance/

Now Back to the Future.

I am now over four months into the MKMMA course, and we have been learning to create new habits, change thought processes from a negative bias to a positive bias, and in particular from this week’s lesson, the road to true abundance has been driven home to me once again, in pondering this paragraph from The Master Key System Part 18:

25. It is clear, therefore, that thoughts of abundance will respond only to similar thoughts; the wealth of the individual is seen to be what he inherently is. Affluence within is found to be the secret of attraction for affluence without. The ability to produce is found to be the real source of wealth of the individual. It is for this reason that he who has his heart in his work is certain to meet with unbounded success. He will give and continually give; and the more he gives, the more he will receive.

From this I have learned that gratitude is a cause, not an effect. I used to think, if I want to get to my “more”, I can’t sit around with my arms folded waiting for good stuff to come to me and then I will be grateful and then I will give. I need to be grateful now and give now (the cause), and abundance will come when the time is right and in the form that is right for me (the effect), according to God’s timing and perfect plan for my life.

Even more profound than deciding to go find my “more” is discovering that “more” is not a tangible thing, or a destination, it’s the proverbial journey. Sounds cliche until it’s internalized and working to drive me along every day, setting the goal each day to live that day as if it is my last, living by these words from Og Mandino’s Scroll V from The Greatest Salesman in the World:

“This day I will make the best day of my life. This day I will drink every minute to its full. I will savor its taste and give thanks. I will maketh every hour count and each minute I will trade only for something of value.”

So who do I want to be? Still figuring it out, which is ok, because it’s about the journey. One way to illustrate is the song Life’s Been Good by Joe Walsh.  It has always been a favourite of mine, not because of the reckless lifestyle it portrays, but because of his individuality and definiteness of purpose, which I covet for myself, not the “living in hotels and tearing out the walls” part, though it makes for a fun song.

If you found this post entertaining, thought provoking, annoying, or have any reaction at all other than complete yawning boredom (you can also tell me that I bore you tho), I’d love to hear your thoughts about your own experiences and how they compare to mine. And if you want to hear more of this kind of stuff, feel free to subscribe to my list below.

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